Hi Everyone. I hope you are all well. I should have been doing two shows this weekend. One in Brighouse and one in Nelson, but instead I’m like one of the many musicians out there, with all work cancelled and no idea when we will be doing our music thingy for people again. A big fat pause in the proceedings. No more shows for the immediate future, and it feels like in 2 weeks so much has changed. I was in Sheffield trying to keep things going with the charity Lost Chord (where I did two lovely concerts for the elderly before being sent home for the week), thinking this virus would be done and dusted in a few weeks. I went to sing in Sheffield on the street on my way home and got interviewed by a woman from The Sheffield Star. https://www.dailymotion.com/video/x7ssdlf

I did go up to Burnley to try to sing there a day later but too much fear was in the air and I knew it was time to stop. Fast forward a week and the streets are getting quieter and quieter. People are getting more and more fearful and the panic is ramping up. Now, I don’t do any of that. I don’t live in that vibe. Made a choice a few years back anyway. No watching the news. Mostly there to instil fear and panic so that’s not entering my vibe. Brainwashing. I know what I have to do without tuning into that every day. No scrolling through Facebook listening to the world fighting it out because the fear has taken over. Also not for me right now.

Taking some time off. I’ve worked hard my whole life and I’m having some ‘off’ time. It’s been given to me so I’m grabbing it with both hands and accepting what is and rolling with it. I’m not worried, fearful, stressed or panicking. I’m having some cracking walks in nature. I only have to walk 5 minutes and I’m on the backs, in the countryside with hills spreading for miles that I can walk for hours on. I’ve been sitting in the sun with my shoes and socks off, grounding myself in the earth, watching the birds, butterflies, the sky, the trees, listening to the nature around me, and reading my book. Bliss.

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I am really happy to social distance because actually being people around people in panic is not where I want to be. I wouldn’t wish this virus on anyone. We all know it’s shit, but I believe there is a grand awakening going on and I’ve been woken up to the corrupt system around us that has kept us slaves for years and I’m done with it and am sick of living in this vibe anyway, so I see change ahead and good change for the people in general. We’ve been running around stressed for years, buying stuff we don’t need, filling the empty gaps in our lives with meaningless stuff and it’s time to stop. I’ve been watching and observing people for years thinking the bottom will fall out of this at some point, and I chose a different way of living few years back when I got rid of most of my things and started moving around. It’s about living from my heart.

I have been working on my inner self for years and I feel like it’s time to step into the person I came here to be. Centred, grounded and a warrior for change. I know some of you won’t get where I am coming from, but I do and I’m excited to see what’s ahead. I’m a spiritual light worker and that is my role on a soul level.

My universal credit application is all done until the self employed thing gets sorted out, but I’ve also been shown so much kindness by people too. I’ve had four people this week who have donated money to me because they have wanted to help me out. Three people gave me money for tickets for my show that they still wanted me to have, and one lady just sent me a cheque with this attached. This kind of thing blows me away. Thank you for such generosity.

It’s weird though because when I had my laryngitis I was super worried about money and now I’m in a worse situation to then, I don’t feel any worry. I just feel we are all in this together and we will all find a way to do it. Back to basics. Roof over my head and food in my belly. One day at at time. Stay in the moment. No travelling on trains, no being here, there and everywhere. Time to be still. Good. I love being alone anyway so to have time to potter is nice.

I have done SOME singing for people. My friend asked if I would FaceTime her mum and dad on their 64th wedding anniversary and sing some songs to them so I did that. Really enjoyed it. Her mum has dementia and her dad is caring for her and they both really like opera. I met my friend near The Embankment station a few years back when she stopped to listen and she asked me to sing some Puccini for her mum and dad.

We kept in touch and built up a friendship and I went to sing for her whole family last year for her mum and dads wedding anniversary so I love how these random meetings can lead to threads and stories in life that keep growing. I’ve also recorded a few videos for a theatre school who want to send some videos to the kids they teach, so I’ve been doing some Mary Poppins stuff for that too, and I’ve been working with the guy on my demo for my show. We had the time to chat to each other a few days this week and go through every bit of it to put it together, so I’m actually grateful that we could do that.

Not sure if we would have done in normal circumstances. The lady next door also likes opera and is staying home so I’ve been to get her medication and have been singing some songs through the wall for her too. If anyone else wants me to sing anything for them or anyone else let me know. Just get in touch.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not just sat here not caring about what’s going on outside. We all know. Like I say, I wouldn’t wish it on anyone and I know people are finding it really hard but it will pass and we will get going again and we will all learn something from it. The world will never be the same again.

I’ve also had a bit of a sing on the hills and done a bit of singing along to The Sound of Music. I felt like like being a bit silly when out and about. They may stop all events but doesn’t mean I can’t do my own event. I bought the sing along version but really it’s just a dvd with subtitles on it so I could have just used my normal dvd. I’m trying to work out how I can organise a singalong of some of the songs online. I will try to do this at some point, and might organise a few concerts. Just giving my self some time first. No rushing into anything right now. My energy is not there with that. On a different vibe. So, who knows what’s going to happen now. A time of uncertainty, and I am good with uncertainty. I’ve been living it for the past few years. My ego hates it, but my soul lives for that shit and I love a bit of soul living. I feed off that shit every day. Enjoy the time you’ve been given and take care.